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Not writing about this would be dishonest
Wilfflat energy 2turning point
Very tired. Not the kind of tired a nap fixes. I slept nine hours and woke feeling as though I had been awake all night. A rough patch that kept him off the allotment…
Flat, whole night
Mattgrateful energy 2turning point
Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Cycled to work and back for a full month. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Sat…
Why are you not eating
Poppyprickly energy 3
Ten minutes then I am asleep. My son asked why I was not eating my dinner. I gave him a bad answer, thought about it all evening, and gave him a better one on…
Nothing to report
Belflat energy 3
Short one tonight. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Steady. That is the whole entry. Better tomorrow, probably.
She noticed first
Mapleheld energy 1
A gentle week, mostly. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Nobody has ever asked me…
Nothing to report
Olliesteady energy 3
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false…
What is your secret
Soniaawkward energy 2
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. A wedding. Three…
First dose, done
Tarnnervous energy 2turning point
I want to write this down before I forget how frightened I was, because I suspect in three months I will not believe it. Twenty minutes of standing there. Then eight…
A new bin and a plan
Lenaorganised energy 2
Recording this for the record. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That…
Two flights of stairs
Ambrosepleased energy 4
Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Walked into…
Before nine
Bosteady energy 2
A quiet week. Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain…
Across the day
Devsteady energy 5
Notes for the week. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Was undereating without…
No news
Duncanfine energy 5
Three things this week. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Quiet.…
She read the diary
Fenheard energy 3
This week: Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got…
Three days late
Gavinanxious energy 5
Late, and writing anyway. Delayed by three days because I could not face it, and then felt so bad about the delay that I nearly delayed again out of shame. Said this…
I have started
Iveshopeful energy 2turning point
So. First one done. I had been carrying the box around the house for four days like it was something I had borrowed and needed to give back, and in the end I did it…
Standing in the kitchen
Izzyhopeful energy 5turning point
Well then. What I keep coming back to is how long it took me to get here. Not the medication — the asking. Years of that. Started during a redundancy, which she says…
Starters as a main
Keeleywarm energy 1
Short one tonight. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still…
Back without making it up
Ottolinetired but good energy 5
A brief account of the week. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Walked instead of the bus…
The bad fortnight
Peggysore energy 2turning point
Very tired. Not the kind of tired a nap fixes. I slept nine hours and woke feeling as though I had been awake all night. A rough summer borne alone. Sore at the…
Dreams
Minafoggy energy 4
The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so…
My mother cooks
Birdieawkward energy 1
Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed,…
The pattern of it
Carlflat energy 2turning point
Headache for three days running. It turned out I had barely drunk anything since Tuesday. Water, then a slow improvement, then feeling faintly stupid. A bad month he…
I nearly did not write
Gigiflat energy 3
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I…