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Beginning, badly
Casswired energy 2turning point
The leaflet is nine pages and about seven of them are worst cases. I have read it three times, which was three times too many, and I am now going to stop reading it.…
Across the day
Kezsteady energy 1
Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. I have found five things I can get down when…
Fewer, heavier
Marthatired but good energy 2
A brief account of the week. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Grip strength has gone off…
Not writing about this would be dishonest
Pruesore energy 3turning point
Reflux again. I slept propped up on three pillows and woke at two anyway. I have an appointment on Thursday and I am going to actually mention it this time rather…
Paired
Dillyheld energy 2
Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. My buddy noticed something in my journal…
A rough few days
Florriesore energy 1turning point
Evening. The burping. Nobody mentions the burping. It is not in any leaflet and it is genuinely one of the odder experiences of my adult life. A rough summer. Very…
The bad fortnight
Flossiesore energy 5turning point
Evening. Headache for three days running. It turned out I had barely drunk anything since Tuesday. Water, then a slow improvement, then feeling faintly stupid. A…
Back without making it up
Gwentired but good energy 2
Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he is annoyingly…
What is your secret
Inêsawkward energy 5
Short one tonight. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Starters as…
Circle tonight
Iveswarm energy 2
This week: Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly…
Circle tonight
Lilwarm energy 2
Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in…
The first one
Mossnervous energy 5turning point
Day one. I am writing this partly because somebody else's day-one entry is the reason I felt able to do it at all, and it seems only fair to leave one behind. A…
A locum
Nanfrustrated energy 5
This week: Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. Nine minutes. I took three written…
No news
Samflat energy 3
Notes for the week. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing…
An unremarkable week
Katefine energy 5
Steady. That is the whole entry. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's…
Across the day
Dorasteady energy 4
Week in order: Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer.…
The first one
Dothopeful energy 3turning point
Right. The pharmacist talked me through it very fast and I nodded at all of it and retained about a third. I have written down the bits I remember and I will ask…
She stopped the room
Flossiewarm energy 3
The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Circle tonight.…
A new bin and a plan
Gigiorganised energy 4
Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months. Tested three cool bags…
The quiet
Gusquiet energy 4turning point
The quiet is not the same as peace. It has left a space, and the space has other things in it that I had been keeping the noise on top of. Wrote the entry that made a…
Two lengths, badly
Keeleygrateful energy 5
Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do…
Before nine
Lusteady energy 4
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. I have found five…
The second one is easier
Markfrayed energy 3
Nothing. Eleven weeks of nothing. I know intellectually that nothing is not a failure, and I am finding that intellectual knowledge worth approximately nothing this…
Two sessions
Marthasteady energy 5turning point
A brief account of the week. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it anywhere else. Back to loading properly. Eight minutes and…