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Standing in the kitchen
Callahopeful energy 1turning point
A quiet week. I told one person. Not my mother, not work. One person, and only because she asked me a direct question at the right moment. A long telehealth wait and…
A voice on the phone
Gavinanxious energy 5turning point
Late, and writing anyway. Delayed by three days because I could not face it, and then felt so bad about the delay that I nearly delayed again out of shame. Said this…
Steady
Gusflat energy 3
A gentle week, mostly. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Steady. That is the whole entry. No news. The…
No mask
Hollyfoggy energy 2turning point
Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Sleep broke completely and she did not know which thing to blame. Slept through.…
Where the pen lives
Inêsorganised energy 5
Late, and writing anyway. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Tested…
Into town and back
Keeleypleased energy 3
Short one tonight. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to…
Steady
Luflat energy 4
Steady. That is the whole entry. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
Kateorganised energy 1
Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. New sharps bin, and a plan for what…
Where the pen lives
Doraorganised energy 1
Week in order: New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire…
I have started
Keeleywired energy 1turning point
Nothing has happened yet, which nobody had warned me about. I think I expected to feel something immediately, and instead I made a cup of tea and put a wash on.…
An hour on the floor
Norahquietly delighted energy 4
Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Sleep, in theory.
Day one
Tobywired energy 2turning point
Quickly, before bed. What I keep coming back to is how long it took me to get here. Not the medication — the asking. Years of that. Started in the summer holidays,…
I nearly did not write
Minafine energy 5
Short one tonight. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Steady. That is the whole entry. Until Monday.
A plain question
Brodysteady energy 5
Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer. Got something with…
The first one
Gwendahopeful energy 4turning point
This week: The leaflet is nine pages and about seven of them are worst cases. I have read it three times, which was three times too many, and I am now going to stop…
Before nine
Priyasteady energy 3
A gentle week, mostly. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Was undereating without…
Beginning, badly
Noahwired energy 4turning point
The leaflet is nine pages and about seven of them are worst cases. I have read it three times, which was three times too many, and I am now going to stop reading it.…
Sunday night, four lines
Poppyheld energy 5
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. My buddy…
My mother cooks
Annikawarm energy 5
Short one tonight. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who…
No mask
Fentired energy 5
This week: Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. The sleep has changed…
Dreams
Gavinfoggy energy 5
The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced.…
She noticed first
Gigiheld energy 4
She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five…
Stayed for the company
Hollywarm energy 2
The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Went for the…
Where the pen lives
Kezorganised energy 2
Quickly, before bed. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Anchored…