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A different shape
Mossrested energy 2
Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the…
She noticed first
Nettieheld energy 2
This week: My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines…
The question I had been avoiding
Nualafrustrated energy 5
Right. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. She reduced one of my other…
Awake at four
Rinfoggy energy 4
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find…
An unremarkable week
Rafeflat energy 4
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. Steady. That is…
No mask
Sorayatired energy 1
Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people…
Laces
Wilfpleased energy 1
Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not…
Flat, whole night
Lucaspleased energy 1turning point
Well then. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Climbed the stairs at work rather than waiting for a lift. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Full…
Two flights of stairs
Rohangrateful energy 5
Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since…
Awake at four
Bayrested energy 3
A gentle week, mostly. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Vivid dreams, every night, the…
Two flights of stairs
Rayquietly delighted energy 2turning point
Right. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Walked to the top of Wentworth without stopping. Sat on the floor and…
Laces
Morayquietly delighted energy 1
Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the…
Sunday night, four lines
Ossianheld energy 2
Short one tonight. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Nobody has ever asked me how I…
I nearly did not write
Soniasteady energy 4
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Quiet. Injection…
I nearly did not write
Theafine energy 5
A brief account of the week. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. I nearly did not write this week because there was…
Fewer, heavier
Yannicktired but good energy 4
Recording this for the record. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that…
She stopped the room
Mattwarm energy 2
This week: Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven…
Anchored to the shifts
Belorganised energy 2
Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. New sharps bin, and a plan for what…
Steady
Hannahsteady energy 3
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Steady. That is the whole entry.…
Into town and back
Kaigrateful energy 5
A gentle week, mostly. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing…
What is your secret
Nanwarm energy 3
My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. A wedding. Three courses…
Two flights of stairs
Odilegrateful energy 5
Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do…
Eight minutes and a chair
Saratired but good energy 1
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Two sessions this week, both…
Fewer, heavier
Vivtired but good energy 2
Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that…