Journal
Martha’s journal
Sixty-eight. Here for the strength circle and the company.
Nothing to report
week 52fine energy 43 replies
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. An unremarkable week.…
Anniversaries
week 50hollow energy 32 replies
Anniversaries do something to my whole week and I have stopped being surprised by it. A hard spring around an anniversary, and eating fell away. Six weeks of managing almost…
Laces
week 49quietly delighted energy 41 reply
A brief account of the week. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice…
Flat, whole night
week 46grateful energy 41 reply
Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I…
She noticed first
week 44held energy 14 replies
A brief account of the week. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or…
Two lines a day
week 41organised energy 3
Tested three cool bags against a thermometer this weekend because I am that person. Results written up for the travel circle. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to…
An unremarkable week
week 38steady energy 21 reply
A brief account of the week. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine…
Two lengths, badly
week 36pleased energy 34 replies
Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Got up from the floor unaided for the first time in four years. Slept flat. Whole…
Dreams
week 36foggy energy 2
A brief account of the week. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not…
Anchored to the shifts
week 33organised energy 32 replies
A brief account of the week. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the…
Nine minutes
week 31brisk energy 2
A brief account of the week. She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Left with a printout I could not read and no idea…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 29held energy 14 replies
Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Paired up.…
Six labelled boxes
week 26organised energy 22 replies
Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern…
A plain question
week 24steady energy 53 replies
A brief account of the week. Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have…
Fewer, heavier
week 21tired but good energy 22 replies
A brief account of the week. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Grip strength has gone off and I…
Two sessions
week 21steady energy 51 reply
A brief account of the week. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it anywhere else. Back to loading properly. Eight minutes and a chair,…
A locum
week 18frustrated energy 52 replies
Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I…
Two flights of stairs
week 16quietly delighted energy 51 reply
Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care.…
A different shape
week 13foggy energy 5
Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell…
Into town and back
week 11quietly delighted energy 11 reply
A brief account of the week. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to…