Journal
Petua’s journal
Reading, learning, mostly listening.
Reduced
week 65settled energy 52 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Reduced to a maintenance dose. Same day, same fridge, less of it. Steady. Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the fourth month running I…
Both bags, one go
week 60grateful energy 41 reply
Late, and writing anyway. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a…
Grip
week 59tired but good energy 12 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he…
Steady
week 57steady energy 23 replies
A quiet week. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Quiet. Injection Tuesday,…
Dreams
week 56foggy energy 14 replies
Late, and writing anyway. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Slept through. Whole night, no…
A printout I cannot read
week 54brisk energy 42 replies
She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the…
Sunday lunch
week 53awkward energy 11 reply
Short one tonight. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 51held energy 44 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. My buddy noticed…
A plain question
week 50steady energy 13 replies
A quiet week. Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain…
An unremarkable week
week 48flat energy 53 replies
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it…
A different shape
week 47tired energy 34 replies
A quiet week. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has…
The limits of yoghurt
week 46steady energy 23 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer.…
Into town and back
week 44pleased energy 21 reply
Short one tonight. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and…
No news
week 43fine energy 31 reply
A quiet week. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a…
Paired
week 42held energy 14 replies
Late, and writing anyway. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Paired up. We text on Sunday…
Somebody new
week 41warm energy 44 replies
Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. The facilitator stopped the room when four…
A1c down
week 39relieved energy 52 replies
A quiet week. Iron and B12 both low. Treated. The difference in a fortnight was not subtle. Bloods back. Unremarkable, she said, which is a word I had never once heard…
A locum
week 38frustrated energy 52 replies
A quiet week. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. A locum who had clearly read…
Three years side by side
week 38pleased energy 51 reply
Short one tonight. Iron and B12 both low. Treated. The difference in a fortnight was not subtle. A1c down. Bloods back. Unremarkable, she said, which is a word I had never…
Across the day
week 36steady energy 43 replies
A quiet week. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Spread it across the day instead of trying…