Journal
Salma’s journal
Steady is my whole personality now.
Two years, no news
week 103settled energy 34 replies
Two years. My only news is that there is no news, and I have come back specifically to say so, because nobody wrote this part down for me. Steady, still in the recovery-aware…
An unremarkable week
week 84flat energy 12 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. A…
Off the floor
week 66quietly delighted energy 43 replies
Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Went swimming with her nieces. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how…
No mask
week 55rested energy 14 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake…
Starters as a main
week 53warm energy 41 reply
Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested.…
Grip
week 52tired but good energy 2
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it anywhere else. Back to loading properly. Walked instead…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 50held energy 24 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle…
Slept through
week 49tired energy 24 replies
Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in…
I told her
week 48better energy 33 replies
Told my prescriber rather than waiting to see. That is new for me and it is entirely down to something someone said in circle. Wrote about what being challenged was like from…
She read the diary
week 48brisk energy 12 replies
Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that…
Fewer, heavier
week 46tired but good energy 42 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it…
Nobody piled on
week 45held energy 51 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Jonah said something to me in circle that I did not want to hear. He said it once, kindly, in front of everybody, and then he did not…
From the inside
week 44held energy 51 reply
Jonah said something to me in circle that I did not want to hear. He said it once, kindly, in front of everybody, and then he did not say it again. Jonah named something in…
My mother cooks
week 44warm energy 41 reply
A gentle week, mostly. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation…
She noticed first
week 42held energy 34 replies
She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday…
I nearly did not write
week 41steady energy 13 replies
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. No news. The dog is…
Sunday lunch
week 39awkward energy 21 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. Starters as a main course, permanently. No…
A locum
week 38frustrated energy 1
Sitting down to this properly tonight. She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Nine minutes. I took three written…
Paired
week 36held energy 14 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. She had a…
What is your secret
week 35awkward energy 11 reply
Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested.…