Journal
Tam’s journal
I write everything down and it has saved me twice.
Sunday lunch
week 34awkward energy 51 reply
A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's.…
Frightened
week 34frightened energy 52 replies
The thing I want to say, to anybody reading this later: I nearly did not go. I had already talked myself into it being nothing. Please go. A week of upper abdominal pain. The…
Dreams
week 33foggy energy 34 replies
Three things this week. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Slept through. Whole night, no waking.…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 31organised energy 12 replies
Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a…
Steady
week 30steady energy 53 replies
Three things this week. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. An…
Nine minutes
week 28frustrated energy 32 replies
Week in order: Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her…
Anchored to the shifts
week 27organised energy 22 replies
Week in order: Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Tested three cool bags against…
An unremarkable week
week 26fine energy 43 replies
Three things this week. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. I nearly did not write this week because there was…
A locum
week 24brisk energy 52 replies
Three things this week. She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three…
The question I had been avoiding
week 23brisk energy 12 replies
Three things this week. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Took the diary to a…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 21held energy 44 replies
Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Paired up.…
Two sessions
week 20tired but good energy 52 replies
Three things this week. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he is…
No news
week 19fine energy 43 replies
Week in order: I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. An unremarkable…
Into town and back
week 17pleased energy 41 reply
Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing…
Steady
week 16steady energy 43 replies
Three things this week. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. I nearly did not write this week because there was…
What is your secret
week 14warm energy 51 reply
Three things this week. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Sunday lunch…
A wedding
week 12warm energy 11 reply
Week in order: A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Sunday lunch at my…
A printout I cannot read
week 11heard energy 42 replies
Week in order: A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. Asked the question I had been…
Across the day
week 10steady energy 13 replies
Three things this week. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer. I…
An unremarkable week
week 8fine energy 53 replies
Week in order: I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. An unremarkable…