Journal
Wilf’s journal
Seventy-two. Allotment, dog, blood pressure much improved.
No mask
week 44foggy energy 1
Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet…
A locum
week 42heard energy 5
This week: A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. She reduced one of my other medications.…
Quiet
week 39fine energy 51 reply
This week: Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. Steady. That…
An hour on the floor
week 39pleased energy 52 replies
Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Dug the whole plot over in a weekend, aged seventy-two. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that…
Paired
week 36held energy 14 replies
This week: Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. Nobody has ever asked me how I was…
Steady
week 34fine energy 23 replies
Steady. That is the whole entry. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring…
A wedding
week 31warm energy 21 reply
A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Somebody asked what my secret was and…
Two lengths, badly
week 29pleased energy 21 reply
Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now…
Quiet
week 26flat energy 21 reply
This week: I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. No news. The dog is…
She read the diary
week 25brisk energy 43 replies
This week: She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Blood pressure medication reduced. Left with a printout I could not…
Circle tonight
week 24warm energy 5
This week: Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were…
Steady
week 21steady energy 43 replies
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild…
A locum
week 19heard energy 22 replies
This week: Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was…
Fewer, heavier
week 16tired but good energy 12 replies
Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week…
Two lines a day
week 14organised energy 4
This week: Tested three cool bags against a thermometer this weekend because I am that person. Results written up for the travel circle. Small logistics win: worked out where…
Not writing about this would be dishonest
week 12flat energy 21 reply
Very tired. Not the kind of tired a nap fixes. I slept nine hours and woke feeling as though I had been awake all night. A rough patch that kept him off the allotment for…
Quiet
week 11flat energy 41 reply
This week: Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what…
Dreams
week 8rested energy 24 replies
This week: Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I…
Steady
week 5flat energy 33 replies
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made…
Grip
week 3tired but good energy 32 replies
This week: Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he is annoyingly…