Journal
Wilf’s journal
Seventy-two. Allotment, dog, blood pressure much improved.
Just Wednesdays
week 92flat energy 12 replies
This week: Reduced to a maintenance dose. Same day, same fridge, less of it. Steady. Writes about vegetables. Two years. My only news is that there is no news, and I have…
Anchored to the shifts
week 87organised energy 12 replies
New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Tested three cool bags against a thermometer this weekend because I am that person. Results…
Two sessions
week 84tired but good energy 42 replies
This week: Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he is annoyingly…
Two flights of stairs
week 81quietly delighted energy 31 reply
This week: Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for…
Walking
week 79tired but good energy 4
Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week…
Sunday night, four lines
week 76held energy 34 replies
Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable…
A different shape
week 74tired energy 44 replies
This week: Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 72held energy 54 replies
This week: Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. Nobody has ever asked me how I was…
Not a number
week 71delighted energy 32 replies
This week: Not a number. A thing I can do now that I could not do, and I am going to describe it in detail because that is the only kind of record I want to keep. Best onion…
Quiet
week 69flat energy 43 replies
This week: Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what…
A locum
week 67brisk energy 12 replies
This week: She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried…
She noticed first
week 64held energy 54 replies
Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable…
Steady
week 62flat energy 13 replies
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made…
Laces
week 59pleased energy 11 reply
Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me.…
A plain question
week 57steady energy 41 reply
This week: Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Spread it across the day instead of trying…
Before nine
week 56practical energy 52 replies
This week: Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. Started taking protein seriously after a talk from Ren. Greek…
She read the diary
week 54heard energy 12 replies
Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I…
Stayed for the company
week 52warm energy 44 replies
The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Somebody new tonight,…
Back without making it up
week 49tired but good energy 42 replies
This week: Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he is annoyingly…
Sunday lunch
week 47awkward energy 21 reply
This week: A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Somebody asked what my…