Journal
Winnie’s journal
Hairdresser. Extremely aware of hair shedding.
Regrowth
week 39upset energy 31 reply
Regrowth at the front. Short soft bits standing up at the parting like a toddler's. I have never been so pleased about anything so unattractive. Regrowth. She wrote about it…
Six labelled boxes
week 36organised energy 32 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. Small logistics win:…
She stopped the room
week 33warm energy 44 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour,…
Sunday night, four lines
week 30held energy 4
My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the…
A different shape
week 27foggy energy 44 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Vivid…
Back without making it up
week 24tired but good energy 52 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it anywhere else. Back to loading properly. Walked instead of the bus all…
Nine minutes
week 23brisk energy 33 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Her GP checked ferritin…
Not only hair
week 21hopeful energy 32 replies
Regrowth at the front. Short soft bits standing up at the parting like a toddler's. I have never been so pleased about anything so unattractive. GP checked ferritin and…
Cut it short
week 19hopeful energy 11 reply
Regrowth at the front. Short soft bits standing up at the parting like a toddler's. I have never been so pleased about anything so unattractive. Shedding at month four and it…
Nothing to report
week 18steady energy 51 reply
A gentle week, mostly. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately.…
Starters as a main
week 15loved energy 31 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be…
Dreams
week 12foggy energy 44 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Vivid dreams, every…
Anchored to the shifts
week 10organised energy 32 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Tested three cool bags…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 7tired but good energy 22 replies
Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it anywhere else. Back to…
Flat, whole night
week 3grateful energy 31 reply
Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years.…
The first one
week 1nervous energy 41 reply
A gentle week, mostly. The leaflet is nine pages and about seven of them are worst cases. I have read it three times, which was three times too many, and I am now going to…