Journal
Ambrose’s journal
Sixty-six. Strength circle convert.
Nothing happened again
week 99flat energy 22 replies
Two years. My only news is that there is no news, and I have come back specifically to say so, because nobody wrote this part down for me. Steady. The strange part is not…
A printout I cannot read
week 80frustrated energy 14 replies
Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. Blood pressure medication reduced. Asked the question…
Iron and B12
week 51relieved energy 34 replies
A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time and then rang my mother, which surprised us both. Bone density baseline, on his own request. Iron and B12 both low. Treated.…
A new bin and a plan
week 38organised energy 12 replies
A brief account of the week. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Two lines a day…
Grip
week 36tired but good energy 22 replies
Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he is annoyingly right. Eight…
She stopped the room
week 36warm energy 14 replies
A brief account of the week. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 35held energy 44 replies
Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable…
A wedding
week 34awkward energy 11 reply
My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. A wedding. Three courses I could…
Protein first
week 33steady energy 13 replies
Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at…
A plain question
week 32steady energy 23 replies
A brief account of the week. Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked…
Both bags, one go
week 31grateful energy 51 reply
Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care.…
Into town and back
week 30pleased energy 31 reply
A brief account of the week. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Carried both…
An unremarkable week
week 29flat energy 13 replies
A brief account of the week. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Steady.…
Nothing to report
week 29steady energy 43 replies
Steady. That is the whole entry. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has…
Flat, whole night
week 28pleased energy 41 reply
Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever…
Steady
week 27steady energy 51 reply
A brief account of the week. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been…
I nearly did not write
week 26flat energy 51 reply
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Steady. That is the whole entry. An…
Somebody new
week 25warm energy 44 replies
Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Went for the practical answers and stayed…
Slept through
week 24rested energy 44 replies
A brief account of the week. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not…
Two lines a day
week 23organised energy 42 replies
Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen…