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She read the diary
Izzybrisk energy 2
Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. A locum who had clearly read nothing.…
Six labelled boxes
Keeleyorganised energy 3
Late, and writing anyway. Tested three cool bags against a thermometer this weekend because I am that person. Results written up for the travel circle. Batch cooked…
Anniversaries
Marthahollow energy 3turning point
Anniversaries do something to my whole week and I have stopped being surprised by it. A hard spring around an anniversary, and eating fell away. Six weeks of managing…
Two flights of stairs
Ringrateful energy 3
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly,…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
Rafeorganised energy 4
Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to…
She stopped the room
Rillawarm energy 3
The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Circle tonight.…
Grip
Salmatired but good energy 2
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it anywhere else. Back to loading properly. Walked…
She reduced it
Tobybrisk energy 5
She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and…
Nine minutes
Ashbrisk energy 5
Right. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Asked the question I had been…
Past the shop
Freyaquiet energy 5
Quickly, before bed. Something has gone quiet and it took me weeks to be able to name it. There was a running commentary in my head about food — what was in the…
A rough few days
Gigirough energy 1turning point
Headache for three days running. It turned out I had barely drunk anything since Tuesday. Water, then a slow improvement, then feeling faintly stupid. Manageable. Bad…
Sunday night, four lines
Rayheld energy 2
Well then. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. My buddy noticed something in my…
Walking
Minnietired but good energy 3
This week: Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the…
The pattern of it
Nualaflat energy 3turning point
Right. Headache for three days running. It turned out I had barely drunk anything since Tuesday. Water, then a slow improvement, then feeling faintly stupid.…
Where the pen lives
Obiorganised energy 2turning point
Notes for the week. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months.…
An hour on the floor
Ringrateful energy 1turning point
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Full twelve-hour shift, no back pain. Sat…
A printout I cannot read
Oskarheard energy 2
Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Took the diary in. She read it…
Back without making it up
Taviatired but good energy 5
Evening. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a…
Back without making it up
Baytired but good energy 3
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it anywhere else. Back to loading properly. Eight…
Six labelled boxes
Bexorganised energy 3
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four…
The arithmetic
Callapinched energy 5turning point
Late, and writing anyway. Told my partner what it actually costs. That conversation was overdue by about four months. No subsidy. Honest arithmetic in public. What…
I wanted to stop
Devlow energy 1turning point
Flat again. I have stopped looking, which is either healthy or avoidance and I genuinely cannot tell. A flat spring which he insisted on calling "the expected…
Before nine
Fensteady energy 4
This week: Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Protein first, everything else after.…
What was underneath
Freyathoughtful energy 1turning point
Ten minutes then I am asleep. The quiet is not the same as peace. It has left a space, and the space has other things in it that I had been keeping the noise on top…