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She stopped the room
Saoirsewarm energy 1
Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Went for the practical answers and…
No mask
Tildatired energy 3
Week in order: Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off.…
Quiet
Birdiesteady energy 2
Evening. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. An…
My mother cooks
Blywarm energy 2
A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Starters as a main course,…
Two sessions
Bodhitired but good energy 4
Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he is annoyingly…
An hour on the floor
Nellgrateful energy 5turning point
A quiet week. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Lifted a full super without help. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Walked…
Flat, whole night
Bridiequietly delighted energy 3
Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Milking at six.
I nearly did not write
Cassfine energy 3
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most…
No mask
Catorested energy 2
This week: Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not…
Dreams
Clovertired energy 1
Evening. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written about…
Protein first
Ephraimsteady energy 4turning point
A brief account of the week. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I…
No mask
Freyarested energy 4
Quickly, before bed. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there…
My mother cooks
Hattieawkward energy 5
Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank…
Flat, whole night
Norahquietly delighted energy 4turning point
Right. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Slept seven hours after a night shift for the first time in years.…
A new bin and a plan
Sorrelorganised energy 3
New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it…
She read the diary
Tambrisk energy 3
Three things this week. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Left with a…
My mother cooks
Zebloved energy 5
Week in order: Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a…
Across the day
Annasteady energy 5
A brief account of the week. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my…
Into town and back
Bexquietly delighted energy 4turning point
Quickly, before bed. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Ran the Plymouth Hoe loop. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Boxes to pack.
Across the day
Bosteady energy 5
Short one tonight. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Spread it across the day…
Before nine
Brunosteady energy 5
Evening. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer. Protein…
No news
Devfine energy 2
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Steady. That is the whole entry.…
Steady
Dillysteady energy 3
Evening. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday,…
Two lines a day
Esmeorganised energy 4
Evening. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Anchored injection day to my…