Journal
Tilda’s journal
Trying things and reporting back.
Reduced
week 87flat energy 53 replies
Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the fourth month running I have written that, and I have decided it is the best sentence in this journal. Steady. Reduced to a…
A1c down
week 70relieved energy 3
Week in order: Three years of results side by side. A trend rather than a moment, which is apparently the only thing worth looking at. Cholesterol improved. Bloods back.…
Awake at four
week 65foggy energy 3
Three things this week. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off.…
Nothing to report
week 64steady energy 43 replies
Three things this week. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing.…
Somebody new
week 62warm energy 14 replies
Week in order: Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking…
Back without making it up
week 60tired but good energy 2
Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it anywhere else. Back to loading properly. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two…
Sunday night, four lines
week 59held energy 1
Week in order: My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday…
Nine minutes
week 57brisk energy 52 replies
Three things this week. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Left with a printout I…
Before nine
week 55steady energy 43 replies
Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written…
The list on the fridge
week 54steady energy 13 replies
Three things this week. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Spread…
Quiet
week 52fine energy 33 replies
Week in order: No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Nothing to report.…
Anchored to the shifts
week 51organised energy 1
Three things this week. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Tested three cool…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 49tired but good energy 32 replies
Week in order: Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the…
Two lengths, badly
week 49pleased energy 42 replies
Three things this week. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Cycled to Ely and back. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago…
I nearly did not write
week 48fine energy 43 replies
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. No news. The dog is…
A wedding
week 46awkward energy 21 reply
Three things this week. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. Sunday…
Dreams
week 44tired energy 44 replies
Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in…
A plain question
week 43steady energy 33 replies
Week in order: Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and…
The limits of yoghurt
week 42steady energy 23 replies
I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Spread it across the day instead…
She stopped the room
week 40warm energy 34 replies
Three things this week. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Went…