Journal
Ash’s journal
A&E nights. Ask me nothing before 2pm.
Anchored to the shifts
week 7organised energy 3
Right. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months. Tested three cool bags…
An hour on the floor
week 6pleased energy 21 reply
Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Bed. It is noon.
The question I had been avoiding
week 5frustrated energy 12 replies
Well then. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three…
The first one
week 3hopeful energy 14 replies
Day one. I am writing this partly because somebody else's day-one entry is the reason I felt able to do it at all, and it seems only fair to leave one behind. What I keep…
First dose, done
week 2hopeful energy 54 replies
I told one person. Not my mother, not work. One person, and only because she asked me a direct question at the right moment. The pharmacist talked me through it very fast and…
Beginning, badly
week 1nervous energy 13 replies
Right. I want to write this down before I forget how frightened I was, because I suspect in three months I will not believe it. Twenty minutes of standing there. Then eight…