Journal
Bodhi’s journal
Slow living, slow titration.
Just Wednesdays
week 73flat energy 42 replies
Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now. Steady. Two years. My only news is that there is no news, and I have come back specifically to say so, because nobody wrote this part down…
Dreams
week 60rested energy 24 replies
The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that…
Paired
week 59held energy 44 replies
Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a…
Steady
week 58steady energy 21 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather…
She read the diary
week 57heard energy 42 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. She reduced…
A new bin and a plan
week 55organised energy 22 replies
Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Tested three cool bags against a thermometer…
A locum
week 54frustrated energy 32 replies
A gentle week, mostly. She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to…
Flat, whole night
week 54pleased energy 11 reply
A gentle week, mostly. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Held a class of thirty without flagging. Slept flat. Whole…
Somebody new
week 52warm energy 14 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. The facilitator stopped the room when…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 51organised energy 3
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Tested three cool bags against a thermometer this weekend because I am that person. Results written up for the travel circle. New…
What is your secret
week 49warm energy 31 reply
A gentle week, mostly. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. A wedding.…
Circle tonight
week 48warm energy 44 replies
Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 47held energy 44 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it…
A different shape
week 45tired energy 2
Sitting down to this properly tonight. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Slept through. Whole…
She read the diary
week 44brisk energy 12 replies
Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I…
Two sessions
week 43tired but good energy 42 replies
Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it…
Two lengths, badly
week 41pleased energy 21 reply
A gentle week, mostly. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that…
Back without making it up
week 40tired but good energy 5
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it anywhere else. Back to loading properly. Eight minutes…
Two flights of stairs
week 38pleased energy 41 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever…
Grip
week 37tired but good energy 12 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Two sessions this week, both short, both…