Journal
Freya’s journal
New to all of it. Asking the obvious questions.
I have started
week 6hopeful energy 24 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. What I keep coming back to is how long it took me to get here. Not the medication — the asking. Years of that. So. First one done. I had been…
Two lines a day
week 5organised energy 52 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Tested three cool…
Two lengths, badly
week 4pleased energy 21 reply
Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Up the stairs at work twice…
Standing in the kitchen
week 3nervous energy 43 replies
Quickly, before bed. I told one person. Not my mother, not work. One person, and only because she asked me a direct question at the right moment. Asked eleven questions in…
Circle tonight
week 2warm energy 54 replies
Quickly, before bed. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly…
A different shape
week 1foggy energy 34 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there…