Journal
Thea’s journal
Thinking out loud is how I process.
I nearly did not write
week 42fine energy 53 replies
A brief account of the week. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing…
An unremarkable week
week 40steady energy 41 reply
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Nothing to report. Writing it…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 38organised energy 12 replies
A brief account of the week. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Small logistics…
I nearly did not write
week 36steady energy 43 replies
A brief account of the week. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole…
Both bags, one go
week 34quietly delighted energy 41 reply
Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got…
I did not know
week 32quiet energy 1
A brief account of the week. Went past the shop I always go into and simply did not go in. Not resisted. Did not occur to me. I stood outside for a moment afterwards trying…
Dreams
week 29rested energy 24 replies
Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Slept…
It is coming back
week 28quiet energy 51 reply
A brief account of the week. The hum is back, quieter. I panicked when it started returning and Jonah pointed out, mildly, that nobody had promised it was permanent. A…
An unremarkable week
week 28fine energy 43 replies
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about…
The list on the fridge
week 26steady energy 23 replies
Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Protein first, everything else after. It is not…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 24tired but good energy 12 replies
A brief account of the week. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time. Kept the two…
Protein first
week 22steady energy 33 replies
A brief account of the week. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Spread it across the day…
A new bin and a plan
week 20organised energy 32 replies
Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and…
Flat, whole night
week 18grateful energy 11 reply
A brief account of the week. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at…
I nearly did not write
week 16flat energy 33 replies
A brief account of the week. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks.…
Walking
week 14tired but good energy 52 replies
Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it…
An unremarkable week
week 12flat energy 43 replies
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. Quiet. Injection…
The pattern of it
week 12sore energy 21 reply
A brief account of the week. The burping. Nobody mentions the burping. It is not in any leaflet and it is genuinely one of the odder experiences of my adult life. Mild but…
The limits of yoghurt
week 10steady energy 43 replies
Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both.…
She stopped the room
week 8warm energy 24 replies
Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said…