Journal
Dot’s journal
Morse code hobbyist, terrible sleeper.
The list on the fridge
week 46steady energy 33 replies
Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. I have found five things I can get down when nothing…
Anchored to the shifts
week 44organised energy 42 replies
Right. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months. Tested three cool bags…
The question I had been avoiding
week 42heard energy 42 replies
Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers,…
A locum
week 40frustrated energy 12 replies
Well then. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Asked the question I had been…
Stayed for the company
week 38warm energy 14 replies
Well then. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Somebody new…
I nearly did not write
week 36fine energy 53 replies
Well then. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. An…
Before nine
week 34steady energy 43 replies
Right. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and…
Nothing to report
week 32flat energy 53 replies
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal…
Nine minutes
week 31brisk energy 5
Well then. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Repeat study: apnoea much reduced.…
She reduced it
week 30brisk energy 2
Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers,…
Quiet
week 28steady energy 43 replies
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on…
I nearly did not write
week 26fine energy 11 reply
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. I nearly did not write this week because…
Protein first
week 24steady energy 13 replies
Well then. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the…
Sunday lunch
week 23loved energy 41 reply
Well then. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. Sunday lunch at my…
She read the diary
week 21frustrated energy 32 replies
Well then. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Asked the question I had been…
Dreams
week 19tired energy 34 replies
Well then. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. The sleep has changed shape…
My mother cooks
week 17warm energy 51 reply
My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's.…
Nothing to report
week 16steady energy 13 replies
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Steady. That is the whole…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 14tired but good energy 4
Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Eight minutes…
No mask
week 13rested energy 21 reply
Well then. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Sleep changed shape rather than…