Journal
Héloïse’s journal
Precise and private.
No project
week 83content energy 41 reply
A brief account of the week. Reduced to a maintenance dose. Same day, same fridge, less of it. Steady. Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now. Voilà.
Come back in a year
week 61pleased energy 13 replies
A brief account of the week. A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time and then rang my mother, which surprised us both. Good. Three years of results side by side. A…
A new bin and a plan
week 44organised energy 22 replies
New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice…
The limits of yoghurt
week 43steady energy 13 replies
A brief account of the week. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Spread it across the day…
Quiet
week 42flat energy 33 replies
A brief account of the week. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole…
Circle tonight
week 41warm energy 24 replies
A brief account of the week. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. The…
Two sessions
week 39tired but good energy 52 replies
A brief account of the week. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Walked instead of the bus all week.…
No mask
week 39tired energy 4
Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Slept…
An hour on the floor
week 38pleased energy 21 reply
A brief account of the week. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Tied my own laces…
Both bags, one go
week 37grateful energy 1
A brief account of the week. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Slept flat.…
She noticed first
week 35held energy 44 replies
A brief account of the week. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle…
Flat, whole night
week 35grateful energy 53 replies
A brief account of the week. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Walked the Salève. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 35organised energy 52 replies
A brief account of the week. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Anchored injection…
She stopped the room
week 34warm energy 14 replies
Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said…
Two flights of stairs
week 32grateful energy 21 reply
Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Got down on the floor and back up again…
An unremarkable week
week 31steady energy 53 replies
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild…
Awake at four
week 30tired energy 44 replies
A brief account of the week. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten…
Across the day
week 29steady energy 33 replies
Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both.…
Nine minutes
week 28heard energy 42 replies
Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 27tired but good energy 1
Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Eight minutes…