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Sore and slow
Callasore energy 3
The nausea has a shape to it now. Thursday teatime it starts, Friday it peaks, Saturday afternoon it lifts. Once I could see the pattern it stopped feeling like…
Anchored to the shifts
Clemmieorganised energy 1
A gentle week, mostly. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Tested three cool bags against a thermometer this weekend because I…
A printout I cannot read
Dorabrisk energy 2
Three things this week. Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. A locum who had…
Nine minutes
Esmeheard energy 2
Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Left with a printout I could not…
She stopped the room
Flossiewarm energy 2
Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring.…
Unpleasant, not dangerous
Gwynethrough energy 1turning point
This week: Cramp in both calves in the night, twice this week. Mentioned it and had bloods done rather than being told to eat a banana, which I appreciated. A hard…
The first one
Héloïsewired energy 4turning point
The leaflet is nine pages and about seven of them are worst cases. I have read it three times, which was three times too many, and I am now going to stop reading it.…
What is your secret
Ikewarm energy 5
Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none…
Sore and slow
Nixflat energy 5
Notes for the week. The nausea has a shape to it now. Thursday teatime it starts, Friday it peaks, Saturday afternoon it lifts. Once I could see the pattern it…
Slept through
Norahtired energy 5turning point
Well then. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written…
Nine minutes
Posyfrustrated energy 1
This week: Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Left with a printout I…
Into town and back
Rafegrateful energy 4
A brief account of the week. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever…
A wedding
Salmawarm energy 2
A gentle week, mostly. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. Starters as a main course, permanently. No…
Steady
Wilfsteady energy 4
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild…
She stopped the room
Brodywarm energy 4
Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of…
Standing in the kitchen
Ephraimhopeful energy 1
The pharmacist talked me through it very fast and I nodded at all of it and retained about a third. I have written down the bits I remember and I will ask again at…
Two lines a day
Gusorganised energy 3
A gentle week, mostly. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Tested three…
Sunday lunch
Héloïseloved energy 5
A brief account of the week. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be…
Three days late
Jontyanxious energy 5
A brief account of the week. Delayed by three days because I could not face it, and then felt so bad about the delay that I nearly delayed again out of shame. Said…
The pattern of it
Linnetflat energy 2
A gentle week, mostly. Bad week and I am writing it down anyway, because a journal that only contains the good weeks would be a lie and no use to anybody reading it…
She noticed first
Maryamheld energy 5
Recording this for the record. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Paired up. We text on Sunday…
I nearly did not write
Norahflat energy 3
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Steady. That is the…
Somebody new
Odilewarm energy 5
Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. The facilitator stopped the room…
Dreams
Peggyrested energy 3
This week: The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It…