Journal
Rilla’s journal
Oil rig catering. Ask me about cold storage.
Just Wednesdays
week 80flat energy 1
Quick one. The strange part is not having a project any more. I had not understood how much I was enjoying having one. Steady. Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now. Reduced to…
Two lengths, badly
week 52grateful energy 43 replies
Quick one. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Full three-week rotation without her back going. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Chopper Tuesday.
Across the day
week 43steady energy 43 replies
Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written…
I nearly did not write
week 42fine energy 33 replies
Quick one. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have…
Slept through
week 41rested energy 1
Quick one. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written about it.…
Walking
week 40tired but good energy 52 replies
Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time. Two sessions this week, both short, both…
Steady
week 39flat energy 41 reply
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Steady. That is the whole entry. Chopper…
Nothing to report
week 38steady energy 33 replies
Quick one. Steady. That is the whole entry. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Chopper Tuesday.
Six labelled boxes
week 37organised energy 12 replies
Quick one. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than…
She read the diary
week 35frustrated energy 22 replies
Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was…
Grip
week 34tired but good energy 5
Quick one. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he is annoyingly…
The pattern of it
week 33flat energy 13 replies
Quick one. The nausea has a shape to it now. Thursday teatime it starts, Friday it peaks, Saturday afternoon it lifts. Once I could see the pattern it stopped feeling like…
What is your secret
week 32warm energy 11 reply
A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Somebody asked what my secret was and…
A different shape
week 31foggy energy 44 replies
Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written about it. Slept…
The bad fortnight
week 30flat energy 11 reply
Bad week and I am writing it down anyway, because a journal that only contains the good weeks would be a lie and no use to anybody reading it later. A bad rotation.…
The list on the fridge
week 30steady energy 43 replies
Quick one. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Spread it across the…
An unremarkable week
week 29steady energy 33 replies
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my…
Quiet
week 28steady energy 13 replies
Quick one. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Steady. That is the whole…
No news
week 27fine energy 13 replies
Steady. That is the whole entry. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Chopper Tuesday.
She stopped the room
week 25warm energy 34 replies
The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Circle tonight. Eight of us,…